my internship in a nut shell What ever that means.

Life out side of internship is confusing already. When I first signed up to be an intern I learned how to have a servants heart, how to be slow to anger, to be hurt and love some one all at the same time. I learned how to be submissive all to well. My first year as an intern, I was one of three interns. There was Intern “T” the second year intern, intern “R” a first year intern but the oldest of the three of us, and then there was me.

My Name is simply intern, at least that’s what everyone refers to me as. I loved the leadership I was under P.s. was an amazing guy. He helped me discover the leader with in myself. Let me know its ok to mess up along as I fixed it. He helped me discover my passions and dreams. What I learned from the other interns was how to take initiative. I also learned how to put my mind to something, and keep moving forward. Intern “T” was an amazing intern he served like no other and yes I did have a crush on him. I think it was because of his passionate heart and love For God. He learned how to preach and share Gods love by first becoming a servant. That’s something a lot of leaders lack. Intern “R” was also an awesome intern. She learned all she needs is God and she can handle anything tossed her way. But one thing I disliked is how she expected others to do what she said but she never really did anything. No one is perfect I lacked confidence in my self and still struggle with it this second year.

Earlier I said I learned to be submissive all to well. The reason is during my first year I was not always sure how to stick up for my self I let the other interns walk all over me, but only one really did that, however towards the end I picked my self up and started seeking God like never before . P.S. was promoted and had to leave and I decided I need not sulk because of it. So we made it through the year and found a new Youth pastor with lots of zeal and passion and dreams for this ministry.


Thus the second year begins.

P.R. was the new youth pastor he was fresh out of college but he had years of ministry under his belt. I started my second year under his leadership along with 3 new interns. And the cycle continued from the very beginning I tried to ignore it thinking ok there still learning the ropes. That’s why I let it go for so long unrenowned to the new youth pastor these new interns were making a circle and only let whom they chose inside so frustrating. And when I tried to ignore it I couldn’t, because I had at least 4 people ask why there so clicky . The thing that stuck with me was when a close friend asked why it is always them and you. Why I don’t know. They are amazing don’t get me wrong they always did amazing things but they didn’t include me. I always tried to help they responded. “We need any more help”, or “we didn’t ask you because we thought you were to busy”. Let me just say I should of told them off numerous times but thank You God for patients.

This second year started getting better exept some drama happened in the church. The new youth Pastor had to peace out he didn’t want to but he had to. And get this these new inters decided they knew what happened but didn’t want to tell me jack. Started saying things and then said ill tell you later when I would walk in the room Do you know what that is? I do it’s a gossiping spirit. That spirit has had this church by the neck for to long. Oh and the thing that set me off was when I would hear them talking about our head pastor. That would anger me so much. How are you supposed to be talking about leader ship like that? Your not, I decided its cause there still little girls angry cause P.R had to leave and now there’s a interim youth pastor P.R.L Great guy he dose things different but he’s helping us get through this valley.

Things have cooled off with these girls but they are still harboring something up in them selves. You know I’ve prayed God if it’s me show me. And you know what God reassures me it’s not me. I still am upset that those girls from the very start tried to walk all over me because they were interns now. Childish to say But, I cried about it some times. I know now it’s no skin off my back. That’s a gross term by the way. Wait maybe it was shirt off my back? Man but I know that they have amazing gifts and talents they just got to realize and even I need to realize in order to become a leader you first need to become a servant.

This second year is still in progress so who knows what will happen:)